In just under 8 weeks, I am marrying Kroc. I will become Mrs Camen.
I was randomly browsing the web while it was quiet at work tonight and came across this statement 'this might be too soon, but I love you - happy six months'. This was from a text some guy sent to his girlfriend. It got me thinking, yet again, about how hard it is to navigate the human minefield that is the modern relationship.
People play too many games these days. Both sexes tend to hide their true feelings and thoughts from each other, but they do it for different reasons. She will do it so she doesn't look like an easy catch; he will do it so he saves his manly face. Both are too fragile and scared to be honest. Several phrases are completely taboo - 'I love you' and 'marriage' and 'commitment' seem to be wiped out of the modern couple's vocabulary the minute they embark on this new relationship. It isn't until long into it (if ever) that they dare to show each other their true self - by then shaking with trepidation that the other may suddenly not like what they see anymore. No wonder people get overwhelmed and stressed and scared by the prospect of a relationship.
I thought of how when Kroc and I met - nay, before we actually physically met, we came to an agreement - no silly games and no relationship politics. So it shouldn't have come as a shock when he asked me to marry him, round about the same time into the relationship as the guy above dared to text (please note - not whisper, not utter while looking into her eyes, not even handwrite but type in a text) those all-important three words to his beloved.
I was sitting at my desk when the realisation suddenly hit me - saying yes might just be one of the most important decisions I have ever made. It certainly is one that has been and will be shaping my life in new and unknown ways, forever. I wish I knew what the future will bring. I know I will never regret saying yes (many people have been doubtful at best and alarmed at worst but I have no fear other than a fear of myself - I know I want to be precisely where I am now). But at times of foolish daydreaming, I wish I could see exactly what lies ahead - eager to see just how the path of our life together will be. Will it be straight and tame, bobbing along gently - or will it wind and snake around, peppered with trials and tribulations of real life? Whom will we encounter in our path? Where will it take us? I want to know and I wanna know now! :)
I already know this was one of those moments that will be forever etched in my memory - so that ten years from now, I can look back and remember in vivid detail EXACTLY how it felt to be reading that blog post on that fateful Sunday evening in December. I just cannot wait to start the journey - to set off on our little private adventure, our marriage.
This forum is becoming increasingly more technical with each new post. I understand that it is mostly for technical reasons people visit and contribute to the discussion. But I am a woman, and we're all about feelings, and interaction, and friendships... Do you have ten minutes? Can you drag your mind away from cascading style sheets and markup and java? Want to make this forum into more than just an advice board - to turn it into a community where like-minded people can speak their mind and be themselves without ever being judged? Do let others in on your life - has there ever been one decision that had a profound effect on the rest of your life? What was the biggest / best decision you have ever made? How has it impacted on your life? What did it teach you? Do let's share some wisdom! :)